The art of Juggling

Since I have activated my license things have been pretty crazy. This is good, but bad. Tuesday we had our weekly meeting and I signed a contract with my boss and ReMax. If things start picking up with buyers to the point where I can't do both jobs they will find a replacement for me at the office. Right now its nice having the guaranteed income plus the commissions I can make off selling, but eventually it will get to be too much.

My Dad was afraid that he was getting shingles again, so he wasn't sure if he should watch Nadia Tuesday. I had to work, plus had a client to take out that afternoon. I was pretty stressed out about what I was going to do. Yes, I say "I". I have a new found appreciation for working Moms. It falls on the mother to make sure their child is taken care of. Men's jobs are typically deemed "more important". I don't get this, but I had my own taste of it Tuesday. Jacob said "Well, what are you going to do?" That was the first time it hit me. Its all on me. I ended up chancing the shingles and sent her over there anyway. Thankfully, it turned out not to be. I have been trying very hard not to let the fact that I have a new baby at home interfere with my job. I want to be able to handle it all. I am trying my hardest, but I was sure I wasn't going to win. Let's face it I went back to work when Nadia was 2 weeks old, she is 5 months old now. Most women still wouldn't be back to work. I didn't give myself enough time to recoup. I never imagined what a hard time I would have emotionally/mentally. The good news is, I think I am finally beginning to level out. I know that Jacob tries his hardest, and he does very well with helping me, I can't imagine what it must be like for some women. Even with as much help as he does give, there are certain things he is going to have to live without. Like sleeping in. I have also asked him to please start helping at night. For the last month or more Nadia wakes up at least 2-3 times a night. I am exhausted, and I am still trying to work and take care of the house and us. Jacob generally sleeps in every morning until about 830. I am up at 7 trying to get myself ready and Nadia, which is not easy. I have asked him if he can please start waking up and helping me on the mornings I need it. His job is more physical and I understand that, but no one can go around sleep deprived and trying to handle everything. He was eager to help which gave me great relief. Sometimes we forget that we need to tell people, especially men, when we need help and what we need them to do.